Penatlah.
Penatlah nak layan kerenah bende ni.
Penatlah tiap tiap hari aku nak happy je ada je bende ni buat nak bagi aku sakit hati.
So tired of pretending im fine with the way things always end up.
I hate waiting for misery to end and tomorrow comes because the same shit happens in diferrent form of situations every day. It passes by every day in disguise but if u look back at it, its the same shit.
Buatlah vanilla sponge, letak passionfruit mousse bagi set. Jadi satu mousse cake.
Letak blueberry, letak cream, jadi satu blueberry cake.
Letak krim manis kat tengah lepas tu roll jadi swiss roll.
Tapi bile alihkan krim krim tu sume, makan pun base die sama.
Vanilla Sponge.
It all comes down to one thing, everything wouldnt have turn out that way if that one thing didnt cause it to be that way.
And that thing is in me whether i like it or not.
I tried my best to push it away but it comes uninvited and leaves me hanging in between the options of me who needs to fix myself or me who is just paranoid over small encounters that eats up my feeling as if the world is sick of my presence when its not.
That thing is a foe in disguise, pretends to please u and catches ur weakness, and spread it out like pixie dusts.
Please let me out of this leash, i dont need u in my life
Ure in my every meal, in every depths and corners of my mind.
Its painful and its sickening.
